Wednesday, 19 December 2012

In under the wire

Does anyone else ever feel like their body is just fucking with them for shits and giggles?

I started spotting on Sunday night.  This is actually good, I thought.  It means AF isn't far away and I can get into the clinic before it closes for the holidays and get the go-ahead for IVF #2! 

The clinic closes on Friday, which means that I had to get my period by Wednesday at the latest in order to do Day 3 bloodwork.  Monday came and went...still spotting.  Then Tuesday.  More spotting.  I had pretty much given up hope at this point, and started researching beach vacations that M and I could take in January to get our mind off the fact that we weren't cycling.

Finally, first thing this morning, pretty much at the last possible second, AF arrived.  Three days late.  Luckily, as I've given up hope of ever conceiving without the help of science, I wasn't in POAS mode (although I virtually never POAS anyway...the sight of all that stark white blankness is just too much for me).  What I was in was pissed off mode!  All I needed was for my body to do one little thing to cooperate, and it seemed like it wasn't going to happen.  This morning it felt like my uterus was almost laughing at me.  "Hah!  Almost gotcha there for a sec, didn't I?  Thought I was gonna hold out a few more days, right?  Heh heh.  Nah.  I was just fuckin' with ya."

My uterus is an asshole.

Anyway, as it is we're in under the wire.  Day 3 bloodwork and ultrasound on Friday morning, and if all looks good I start BCP over the holidays.  I'm also doing my instruction class for my Cetrotide shots as I'll have to start them over the holidays too, before the stims.  I'm not quite sure how this is going to be any better at avoiding the oversuppression that happened on Lupron, but I guess that's why I pay my RE the big bucks!

24 comments:

  1. Yay for making it under the wire! Your uterus could have been a REAL bitch and had AF start tonight after the clinic closed so you would have JUST missed it. Good luck! I hope this is your cycle ending with a bfp!!

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    1. That is true. See, I need other people to point out the bright sides...

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  2. "My uterus is an asshole."

    This made me laugh. Hard. Stupid uterus. Glad she got her shit together just in the nick of time.

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    1. Yeah, she's good for stuff. Sometimes.

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  3. Hahaha... I always feel like my ute is messin' with me, too, purposely choosing the most inconvenient time to start bleeding. So wait, this over-suppression you had with Lupron kind of freaks me out... I've been told I respond majorly to fertility meds, which you'd think might be a good thing, but it makes me curious as to whether I'd also respond in a big way to the Lupron and actually shut down. I'm also SO nervous taking the BCP because, like you, it took me a year to get my period after being on it in uni. Argh, guess you just have no choice but to wait and see with these things. Glad you scooched in before the holidays, though!!

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    1. Well, I'm not sure about your AMH or FSH/E2 stats, but if you were getting 3 and 4 eggs on Gonal F for your IUIs then I'd say it's a fair bet you'll be fine on Lupron. I honestly didn't find it that bad...no crazy mood swings or bloating, just a little bit of waking up at night sweaty towards the last few days of it when I was really suppressed. It was more my insides that took the brunt of it, apparently. Statistically, the long Lupron protocol has the highest success rate of all IVF protocols. I have high hopes for you. :)

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    2. Phew! Great to know... thanks for the "hot" tip about night sweats, too. My mom was like, "Oh, that drug will put you into early menopause! Have fun with hot flashes. And you won't sleep either." Oy... best of luck on the BCP and here's looking forward to 2013: The Year When Shit Gets Real. :)

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  4. My CD3 is also Friday for my IVF #2. Let's hear it for just-under-the-wire!

    Cycle buddies?

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    1. I've never had a cycle buddy before, I feel so special! Of course!

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    2. Not to fill your heart with superstition-fueled hopes, but... My cycle buddies all seem to get sticky positives. It's like in college when just by virtue of rooming with me, my roommates all wound up having fabulous sex. (Nevermind that I happened to want to be sleeping in the room at the same time...)

      Okay, I know... College is when most people are having fabulous sex, and IVF works about 50 percent of the time. But still. It seems like my first-round cycle buddies all owe me a thank-you note or something. Meh.

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  5. That's great news. I'm also cycling over the holidays. I'm a poor responder (this is my first IVF, but I've got undetected amy and high fsh) and I too am injecting ganirelix (which i think is the same as centrocide) prior to stimming. Weird, but I guess this is what they do. It's nice to know this isn't an off the wall Protocol. Good luck!

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    1. Good luck Martha, be sure to keep me posted on how it goes!

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  6. I totally feel like my body is fucking with me. Every day. Glad you made it in time. Yay for January IVF! Hopefully it's a good month for all of us.

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  7. Oh the mind games our bodies play on us. And it's not like we can divorce them either. I'm glad you snuck in there at the last moment though- at least it might feel like all the worrying and pissed-off-ness was worth it (would have been worse to have the stress AND not have things work out).

    I still think you should take that vacation though.

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    1. Trust me, if this IVF fails or gets cancelled again, I'm going to NEED that vacation.

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  8. Our January and #2 IVF was the lucky one for us. I hope that will be the charm for you, too! How exciting! ICLW#51

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  9. Hello from ICLW. Yes, our bodies to like to screw with our minds. Hopefully your uterus will start behaving.

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  10. Hi from ICLW. Went through similar with my IVFs.

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  11. Hi from ICLW! I think my body is also designed to screw with me. I hope that your RE can whip your ute into shape and you that you miss your vacation because you are too busy getting pregnant.

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  12. Good luck with this cycle! (ICLW)

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  13. Stupid ute! Our ute seriously need to stop fucking with us. Good luck with this cycle!

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    1. Wishing you the very best of luck with this cycle. I frequently feel like my body or sometimes the universe is screwing with me. I hope your body cooperates this time around.

      ICLW #6
      Dragondreamer's Lair

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  14. Loved the line "my uterus is an asshole" I've referred to my ovaries as sadistic little bitches

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